photo bombardment now.



my life's way out of focus.

new ring. absolute love.


for all those who are drooling for the photos, you should be loving me more right about now. im uploading majority of the photos that i owe a bunch of you. & i dont remember who else owes me pictures.


at jollin's place.

haha, they smile the same.

omg, uber cute.

i painted andrea's nails!!

she felt the torture man, of me painting her nails. muahahha.


in class.





love this shot

i look so damn tut. um..

haha, rezwana

candid candid.

drea & hayyu.


love board.





3s2b 08 plus the missing people.

you bet we do

oh her majesty!

this photo is love. we were all lifting her up.











her majesty's last day.



insane amount of food we somehow managed to finish.

oh, ms malini grew!









man tou.



ms malini rules at arm wrestling.

hockey kids.


amanda is confused right now.

will upload the rest of the photos some other time.

oh her majesty.


oh ms malini. you know we love you to absolute bits. so why'd you have to go?

today was the last lesson we had with our dearest dearest form teacher. ms malini, we're already missing you. she is one hell of a teacher. in other words, she absolutely rocks. she & her nonsense we all look forward to every english lesson. the way we bitched, had those heart-to-heart talks or just laughing our asses off when we're with her, you bet that we really really love her.

so thanks for managing to be there for us everytime we needed you. thanks for telling me its okay. & thanks for the pizza & the coke today.

her smile today was awesome. although we were hoping she'd cry.


we miss you.

her majesty's grand departure. we'll never forget.

lovestoned.


spell clique. l-o-v-e.


i am a hell of a nervous wreck. my results are... um. nevermind. got back chinese & biology today. two papers down, a hundred more nervous moments more to endure.

my chinese needs improving. like much much much improving. & biology is the love. im getting freaked by myself just thinking about how much i'll get for my amath. my tuition teacher is expecting way too much out of a girl who is a genious at completely flunking math. and then there's literature. the teachers are all going all mushy on how we shouldnt be demoralised about our common tests results because its only the first exam of the year. & being the lit students we are, the previous sentence, in other words, to us just means that we did really really really badly. then there's chemistry & ss & geog & emath & english.

oh the anticipation.

i feel like banging my head through many walls right now.

dont know her, the one i see looking back at me

was stressed over my commen tests. & now im stressed over my results. the anxiety is insane, so much for patience being a virtue. i need to remember to breathe.

went video surfing on youtube the other day & found this video just dumb. i guess its entertainment.

i just have one question though, where did dombledore's clothes go? i know he's gay & all, but i dont think he needs to be portrayed as someone who will strip out of the blue.

give the guy a break, he isnt even real.

hello honesty, where've you been all my life?

amanda can make do with honesty back in her life. it ran away with all the hope she built for herself. it ran away, & amanda cant find it.

amanda tried the other day, with up front honesty, to tell the truth. amanda tried. but amanda couldnt take it. she laughed it all off, & everyone assumed that that laugh was honest as well.

amanda hates it. they way she cant cry. the way she cant go to the first person she sees walking by her & pour her heart out. the way everyday seems to make it worse. the way she knows how she is supposed to be around others. the way she has a smile all ready for the world to see.

amanda cant take it.

amanda didnt want to lie. im not fine, but i'll survive.

forgive her for lying.

i dont want to be an emo kid.


pool POOL POOL. oh the love.

i didnt feel so deprived of pool until i played it again this morning. i forgot how long i've not played.

but i didnt have time for too many games. in the end, i had to stop at three games. & my brother and i used to play about eight games at one go. & all because i had to MUG. stupid common tests.

& by the way, i won two out of three games with my brother. proud of myself okay. he is my shifu in pool.

translation, shifu is master in chinese.


photo quality really sucks. but oh well.


oh my fingers look short here. hmm.

bro.

its obsession.


& then went all the way back to jurong east library to mug my brains out. met up with regina then zakiah came & then her friend came.

biology murders my brain cells. but the library is the love man.

we couldnt get a table, the whole library was packed, so we got a corner at the exit which is always locked. it was next to the toilet, very convenient. haha.


she is loved.



je toilets have nice camwhore enviroments.


i hate common tests.

three papers a day is insane. my brain will blow, explode, kaboom. urgh. 3 more papers to go. 2 more days of exams.

i cant wait to go celebrate after that. i just hope i'll make it through in the mean time.

for now, i gtg mug.

please let me run away.



today was ass. i swear i went delusional. i could have cried during the exams.

no, actually, im not fine.
but its so easy to lie. so much so that i start believing myself.

the one hour bus ride home just made it worse. so i got home & turned up the tv & laughed so hard just to hear myself laugh again. then i couldnt take it, so i brought my dog down & ran with her. but she just wouldnt run with me so i brought her back up after 2 rounds.

& then i went down to run for 25 minutes, 3.6 km. but i didnt want to go back upstairs, so i walked & walked & walked. & then i went back up.

& now here i am. about to cry my heart out.

& i dont know why.

shucks. im sorry.